I Moved Across The US

        

        Yesterday I was taking my walk around the neighborhood, surrounded by the whitest of snow. I have been making a habit of this in order to move my body and allow myself to clear up my thoughts a bit. I started to really understand the beauty of the switch made in my reality. It was all really clear that I am living a completely new life in a completely different state, and this all quickly happened. It has been about a little over a month since I have been away from my family and the only state I have ever lived in. To be completely honest, I have only ever lived with my parents my whole live. Every 22 years of it.  I was very nomadic back in Texas, I loved to be on the move and really loved visiting my friends and family. Everyone lived spread out and I had the honor of getting to visit anytime I liked. It was fun to always be on the go, I enjoyed that. I was always the first to answer and help anytime anyone needed it. Being away, I feel as if I am understanding more and healing from the constant movement. Honestly as much as I loved helping and putting smiles on others faces, it was draining for me at times. I had hard lows and did not know how to handle them. 

    I had so much happen in 2021. A lot of lows and a lot of highs. At one point I very much turned to alcohol and used it take my mind off of how uncomfortable I was in my reality. I felt my spirit guides/ ancestors\universe through all of this. I at times would numb the truth enough to stop talking for awhile, but it always came back. This is not where I belong.. and there are others in the world that would like to experience my love, as I experience theirs. I could ask myself why ignore or get rid of the truth when I could just act on it, and break the pattern right then. Change is scary, and for the longest time I did my best to stay as comfortable as I possibly could in my situation. It just began to feel impossible, and I had to act on it at once. I think that everyone goes through this. I learned to not let the fear of failure stop me from doing what I feel is the very best for my higher self. 

    I started writing this four days ago and I am just now coming back to finish this off. This year I am making it a priority to post on here once every week, and no I do not even care if anyone views it. This just makes me feel good and why not do something good for yourself? I want to talk more in depth about my journey through this beautiful and mysterious life. Come heal and grow with me   ☺

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